Peace is the gift of Trust, Trust is the gift of His Mercy
Sometimes i just want to have some quiet time for myself. Time to be able to relax and be at peace from my duties for the day....Remembering when i was a child and not having the grown up responsibilities of paying bills, providing for others futures....Just having time to be. To get lost in time by not counting it. To be so engrossed in a happy, all contented time frame of what i'm doing at that moment, that nothing of the day plagues my mind except for the joy of what i'm doing at that exact moment. To be happy to be doing nothing, just enjoying the enjoyment of just being here for the day...........Is it ever possible to feel that way as an adult? To feel that way without escaping from something, without having something external change our mood?
While in church yesterday my daughter kept hugging me really tight. She'd play with my hair, whisper in my ear, try and tickle my chin, and so on.....i kept thinking to myself....."Oh..How do i get her to pay attention to the prayers and get her to realize the presence of the Holy Spirit".....Then it occurred to me...She was experiencing total happiness of God's presence....She didn't have one complaint; she wasn't upset, she was just so happy and contented being there and she was trying to show her love for me...Trying to share what she felt from our Lord...The true happiness in His presence..She wanted to share it. It's almost like she is so overjoyed she can't wait to share it with others....Isn't that like when we first realize how much God loves us when He's forgiven us of a horrible sin. We are so overjoyed of His forgiveness and Mercy, we can't wait to share it with everyone else! Then i felt as if God was showing me something through my daughter's joy....... She just couldn't wait to tell me she loved me and hugged me and wanted my complete attention...Such is the way of our Lord! He goes out of His way to get our attention..He died for us..He conquered death and came back to tell us and to invite us to follow Him and to reassure us that we'd see Him again. He keeps track on us because He wants to show us His love...All the time...Just like my daughter was trying to tell me during mass.
In Mark 6: 53-56 Jesus goes across the sea to reach and minister to those in need. Attending to them and curing the sick they brought to Him. Jesus reaches through us sometimes across the seas in our own lives. When i was dealing with the after effects of my abortion, i was so caught up in my depression of the realization of how i would never know my baby because of my own action of denying its right to live, that it was hard for me to bring my sick self to Jesus for Him to heal me. Jesus reached across the sea of my guilt and came to me not on my own behalf but because he tied His boat on the shore of my Calvary.....The prayers of others whom i didn't know, strangers, other Christians praying for the woman who had an abortion, were the people who brought sick me on my mat to be cured. Never underestimate the power of prayer and Jesus' ability to care for the sick and needy. Jesus' saw me and out of love for me and others He showed me His healing Love, His Mercy and Mercy to the others who brought me in prayer, who recognized the Man who had the healing powers.
In Jesus' Divine Mercy he heals not only the sick, but in Love and Mercy answers the deepest heartfelt prayers of the others who have the trust in Him.....He loves to give them what they ask because He knows they don't ask for themselves but for the love of others. That's the powerfulness of grace obtained because of Humility and a heart born in love and absolute Gospel charity. Please, if anyone happens to see someone praying for someone else, don't become alarmed but thank God that Gospel Charity is being lived on the earth at that moment.
In Mark 6:56 "Whatever villages or towns or countryside he entered, they laid the sick in marketplaces and begged him that they might touch only the tassel on his cloak; and as many as touched it were healed." Its that faith that the others knew that He would heal all who asked. Its that trust. In the mistrust of my self because of my sin, i couldn't trust that Jesus could forgive what i thought was an unforgivable sin. Jesus didn't ask what the sin of all these people were...He knew them.....But He saw their need, He reached out to them and answered their searching for the healing. If i can only learn that in my busiest part of my days that i need to look for His tassel to touch, then for that day i will be made whole!
As an adult i look for ultimate peace...Where can i go to find that peace and happiness that i described i had when i was a child...i find it in my time alone with Christ. Hearing and reading his word, praying and accepting His love for me, even though i don't understand it...To make my self like a little child knowing He will provide and take care of me & others , and to have the comfort that the Trust in Him is part of His gift and promise to me of everlasting love and life! To be so humble to know that i can't heal myself, but He can... By acting in trust reaching for His tassel (His word) by believing His word...To partake of Him in Holy Communion, to know He has established His Church to be His presence in the world; what more do i need to persuade me to trust? Yes, that freedom of peace and happiness comes from the Humility of Trust that He cares and loves for me and He's the only one who can forgive me and make my life complete, because He loves me and died for me. Yes, that peace and Joy is there for the asking in prayer...At Holy Communion, in the presence of Our Lord and at home in prayer and in His word.
St. Faustina describes to us in her Diary, Divine Mercy in My Soul a conversation Jesus has with a sinful soul-..Entry 1485-Notebook V: "Conversation of the Merciful God with a Sinful Soul.....
Jesus: Be not afraid of your Savior, O sinful soul. I make the first move to come to you, for I know that by yourself you are unable to lift your soul to me. Child, do not run away from your Father; be willing to talk openly with your God of mercy who wants to speak words of pardon and lavish his graces on you. How dear your soul is to Me! I have inscribed your name upon My hand; you are engraved as a deep wound in My heart.
Soul: Lord, I hear your voice calling me to turn back from the path of sin, but I have neither the strength nor the courage to do so.
Jesus: I am your strength, I will help you in the struggle.
Soul: Lord, I recognize your holiness, and I fear You.
Jesus: My child, do you fear the God of mercy? My holiness does not prevent Me from being merciful. Behold, for you I have established a throne of mercy on earth-the tabernacle-and from this throne I desire to enter into your heart. I am not surrounded by a retinue or guards. You can come to me at any moment, at any time; I want to speak to you and desire to grant you grace.
Soul: Lord, I doubt that You will pardon my numerous sins; my misery fills me with fright.
Jesus: My mercy is greater than your sins and those of the entire world. Who can measure the extent of my goodness? For you I descended from heaven to earth; for you I allowed myself to be nailed to the cross; for you I let my Sacred Heart be pierced with a lance, thus opening wide the source of mercy for you. Come, then, with trust to draw graces from this fountain. I never reject a contrite heart. Your misery has disappeared in the depths of My mercy. Do not argue with me about your wretchedness. You will give me pleasure if you hand over to me all your troubles and grief's. I shall heap upon you the treasures of My grace."
These words as recorded by Saint Faustina gave me hope in Jesus' words because i was such a doubting soul! This recording of Jesus words happened in the 1900's. When i was just a baby..Spiritually speaking...i could read the bible but always said, "but what about today?" These quotes recorded by St. Faustina only backs up scripture and when reading Mark 6:53-56, i can see how much Jesus wants to give those who believe and who just don't know how to and who just doubt.
Where is my peace from everyday life....It's in union with our Lord, in the silent of my heart which is joined to His heart because he has placed every single one of us there. There i know i can give Him my troubles and joys and know that He delights when i do that and that He actually wants to hear it....i am so thankful for Gods word made known to us through the bible writers and i'm so thankful to Saint Faustina for writing our Lord's words down so those of us who doubt can find peace and courage to take the time out of our day to give everything to Jesus for the day..and knowing that He's waiting anxiously for His alone time with us. There's my peace and my joy....i think today i will show my little daughter God's love and mercy by spending time with her..getting her attention...reading her favorite book to her...sharing my joy of the Lord with her!
Thank You Jesus for this day to share your love with others. Thank you for giving us another day to live in the light of your love and give me the courage to proclaim your love to everyone i meet today! Your love and sacrifice is enough for me...May my small sacrifices & prayers bring another sick person on a stretcher to you for you to heal..i know you will heal because you have done so for me as sinful as i am. I love you for your Mercy..the cross, the resurrection, the way to true happiness in the shadow of your self sacrificing love! Amen! SJN
While in church yesterday my daughter kept hugging me really tight. She'd play with my hair, whisper in my ear, try and tickle my chin, and so on.....i kept thinking to myself....."Oh..How do i get her to pay attention to the prayers and get her to realize the presence of the Holy Spirit".....Then it occurred to me...She was experiencing total happiness of God's presence....She didn't have one complaint; she wasn't upset, she was just so happy and contented being there and she was trying to show her love for me...Trying to share what she felt from our Lord...The true happiness in His presence..She wanted to share it. It's almost like she is so overjoyed she can't wait to share it with others....Isn't that like when we first realize how much God loves us when He's forgiven us of a horrible sin. We are so overjoyed of His forgiveness and Mercy, we can't wait to share it with everyone else! Then i felt as if God was showing me something through my daughter's joy....... She just couldn't wait to tell me she loved me and hugged me and wanted my complete attention...Such is the way of our Lord! He goes out of His way to get our attention..He died for us..He conquered death and came back to tell us and to invite us to follow Him and to reassure us that we'd see Him again. He keeps track on us because He wants to show us His love...All the time...Just like my daughter was trying to tell me during mass.
In Mark 6: 53-56 Jesus goes across the sea to reach and minister to those in need. Attending to them and curing the sick they brought to Him. Jesus reaches through us sometimes across the seas in our own lives. When i was dealing with the after effects of my abortion, i was so caught up in my depression of the realization of how i would never know my baby because of my own action of denying its right to live, that it was hard for me to bring my sick self to Jesus for Him to heal me. Jesus reached across the sea of my guilt and came to me not on my own behalf but because he tied His boat on the shore of my Calvary.....The prayers of others whom i didn't know, strangers, other Christians praying for the woman who had an abortion, were the people who brought sick me on my mat to be cured. Never underestimate the power of prayer and Jesus' ability to care for the sick and needy. Jesus' saw me and out of love for me and others He showed me His healing Love, His Mercy and Mercy to the others who brought me in prayer, who recognized the Man who had the healing powers.
In Jesus' Divine Mercy he heals not only the sick, but in Love and Mercy answers the deepest heartfelt prayers of the others who have the trust in Him.....He loves to give them what they ask because He knows they don't ask for themselves but for the love of others. That's the powerfulness of grace obtained because of Humility and a heart born in love and absolute Gospel charity. Please, if anyone happens to see someone praying for someone else, don't become alarmed but thank God that Gospel Charity is being lived on the earth at that moment.
In Mark 6:56 "Whatever villages or towns or countryside he entered, they laid the sick in marketplaces and begged him that they might touch only the tassel on his cloak; and as many as touched it were healed." Its that faith that the others knew that He would heal all who asked. Its that trust. In the mistrust of my self because of my sin, i couldn't trust that Jesus could forgive what i thought was an unforgivable sin. Jesus didn't ask what the sin of all these people were...He knew them.....But He saw their need, He reached out to them and answered their searching for the healing. If i can only learn that in my busiest part of my days that i need to look for His tassel to touch, then for that day i will be made whole!
As an adult i look for ultimate peace...Where can i go to find that peace and happiness that i described i had when i was a child...i find it in my time alone with Christ. Hearing and reading his word, praying and accepting His love for me, even though i don't understand it...To make my self like a little child knowing He will provide and take care of me & others , and to have the comfort that the Trust in Him is part of His gift and promise to me of everlasting love and life! To be so humble to know that i can't heal myself, but He can... By acting in trust reaching for His tassel (His word) by believing His word...To partake of Him in Holy Communion, to know He has established His Church to be His presence in the world; what more do i need to persuade me to trust? Yes, that freedom of peace and happiness comes from the Humility of Trust that He cares and loves for me and He's the only one who can forgive me and make my life complete, because He loves me and died for me. Yes, that peace and Joy is there for the asking in prayer...At Holy Communion, in the presence of Our Lord and at home in prayer and in His word.
St. Faustina describes to us in her Diary, Divine Mercy in My Soul a conversation Jesus has with a sinful soul-..Entry 1485-Notebook V: "Conversation of the Merciful God with a Sinful Soul.....
Jesus: Be not afraid of your Savior, O sinful soul. I make the first move to come to you, for I know that by yourself you are unable to lift your soul to me. Child, do not run away from your Father; be willing to talk openly with your God of mercy who wants to speak words of pardon and lavish his graces on you. How dear your soul is to Me! I have inscribed your name upon My hand; you are engraved as a deep wound in My heart.
Soul: Lord, I hear your voice calling me to turn back from the path of sin, but I have neither the strength nor the courage to do so.
Jesus: I am your strength, I will help you in the struggle.
Soul: Lord, I recognize your holiness, and I fear You.
Jesus: My child, do you fear the God of mercy? My holiness does not prevent Me from being merciful. Behold, for you I have established a throne of mercy on earth-the tabernacle-and from this throne I desire to enter into your heart. I am not surrounded by a retinue or guards. You can come to me at any moment, at any time; I want to speak to you and desire to grant you grace.
Soul: Lord, I doubt that You will pardon my numerous sins; my misery fills me with fright.
Jesus: My mercy is greater than your sins and those of the entire world. Who can measure the extent of my goodness? For you I descended from heaven to earth; for you I allowed myself to be nailed to the cross; for you I let my Sacred Heart be pierced with a lance, thus opening wide the source of mercy for you. Come, then, with trust to draw graces from this fountain. I never reject a contrite heart. Your misery has disappeared in the depths of My mercy. Do not argue with me about your wretchedness. You will give me pleasure if you hand over to me all your troubles and grief's. I shall heap upon you the treasures of My grace."
These words as recorded by Saint Faustina gave me hope in Jesus' words because i was such a doubting soul! This recording of Jesus words happened in the 1900's. When i was just a baby..Spiritually speaking...i could read the bible but always said, "but what about today?" These quotes recorded by St. Faustina only backs up scripture and when reading Mark 6:53-56, i can see how much Jesus wants to give those who believe and who just don't know how to and who just doubt.
Where is my peace from everyday life....It's in union with our Lord, in the silent of my heart which is joined to His heart because he has placed every single one of us there. There i know i can give Him my troubles and joys and know that He delights when i do that and that He actually wants to hear it....i am so thankful for Gods word made known to us through the bible writers and i'm so thankful to Saint Faustina for writing our Lord's words down so those of us who doubt can find peace and courage to take the time out of our day to give everything to Jesus for the day..and knowing that He's waiting anxiously for His alone time with us. There's my peace and my joy....i think today i will show my little daughter God's love and mercy by spending time with her..getting her attention...reading her favorite book to her...sharing my joy of the Lord with her!
Thank You Jesus for this day to share your love with others. Thank you for giving us another day to live in the light of your love and give me the courage to proclaim your love to everyone i meet today! Your love and sacrifice is enough for me...May my small sacrifices & prayers bring another sick person on a stretcher to you for you to heal..i know you will heal because you have done so for me as sinful as i am. I love you for your Mercy..the cross, the resurrection, the way to true happiness in the shadow of your self sacrificing love! Amen! SJN
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